forzado a trabajar

It's about 7pm when I write this and im honestlyyyyy tired as hell omfg......HOWWW it's just Monday and im already dying . Anyway I'm studying or well I was studying history for Friday, it's wwii. I'm actually enjoying history this year because my new teacher is so lovelyyyyy and she's actually really really smart and nice so it's 10/10 classes
honestly I don't feel so well because I was given more dose (?) of my antidepressants and sometimes it just hits and my head hurts but because im getting used to it, honestly idk if they work because I feel like shiiiitttt and having bad thoughts I won't elaborate but you get my point
im going to draw right now and watch fun / interesting videos while creating characters im planning on making some designs and write later because I was having some inspo of poems in the morning but I was in classes and I didn't even have my notebook so yeah.....

tw: eating disorders, minimal sexual talk, hate ig..

omfg theres this guy at school I ABDOLUTE HATE with sll my body and soul i swear. he has said sexual stuff abt girls in school some times and he always have been a damn weirdo AND NOW that mf is starving himself and BRAGGING ABOUT IT TO ME, me: someone WHOS SUPPOSED TO BE IN A DAMN EATING DISORDER RECOVERY, and it gen stress me out so badly like buddy i dont care if your mom is telling you to gain weight or if the doctor said ur underweight or if you barely eat an apple in an entire week, I DONT FUCKING CAREEEEEEEE GODDAMMITTTT im not even ur friend i dont EVEN TALK TO YOU and you just walk into my sit and start making these comments to make urself look fragile and cute but no youre so stupid and a complete insensitive this is why everytime you wanna talk to a girl they leave because no one likes u bud

What have i been doing? how things are?

things have gone good so far , if you really think about it, it haven't and it never have. If I had to talk about my life, currently there aren't things that have changed much but from that feeling of emptyness of feelings, it's better than feeling bad so it's actually a good thing. Now...becoming more casual, I'm tired but my life is like a meh these days, I went back to school again and I'm sleepy most of the days but I just hope for the best. Recently I bought the game «Death Stranding» in a second hand game store and im delighted about it, its one of these games that let you having a good thought while playing, like most of Kojima games. Honestly I bought it cause I was actually curious about it and now that it's July and I already finished MGS until Snake Eater, I will have to wait until August to hope that they add the other games to PS4. Anyway I'm pretty sure I will finish this game I bought in a week or so but I will continue playing because it's a comfortable game.

This reminds me that im currently in the process of making a media log page here in my website. Which will definitely force me mentally to start reading more fun stuff like mangas or one shots and start playing fun and cozy games to add. ALSO! I am slowly expanding my Letterboxd account. It's a slow progress, yes. But I hope for the best.

Talking about media logs and mangas, I started reading Jojolion AGAIN recently because I saw some funny and cute edits of the characters.

I honestly have nothing more to talk about (lie, but I don't wanna share much) so I hope someone read this thing and even if not, I like writings these. So, bye bye take care!

Note: do not search about this game. content: loud sounds, explicit gore, cp & viruses
This review comes from watching videos and gameplays about it, also researching a bit cause of course i wasnt going to download so creepy game.
I honestly thought it could be more dark than the actually story is. You just end up with shitty conspiracy theories of who actually created the game and why, when it's was just mostly a troll of 4chan adding cp and gore into it and its not even from the deep web. When it first came out people were all freaked out but it's honestly not that bad— i really thought it was gonna be real terrifying and with actual backstory but the only disturbing thing is the content, not the actual story behind it.
The only actual disturbing content are the pictures of what i mentioned before but they are only in the "true" version, which is the trolling from 4chan. the game itself is not even good or scary itself, it just freaked me out because of the loud sounds and honestly the only interesting things are the photos of actual weird cases such as Margaret Thatcher and Tsutomu Miyazaki, which makes you wanna search about it and get involved with information. the game is only popular because its weirdness and the circumstances when it was posted.

Internet is fun but shitty

There are some things i wanted to express in this place in the internet which is my blog here! i feel like having your own customized place in the internet is amazing like the way to connect with other people and know other realities. still ofc there are many awful things in the internet like badddd people!!! Im currently in a lunch break writing this and this week i have many examns and assignments sigh. Even though i know people probably wont see this but i love writing nonsense and having cute layout so yup. also i used to posts blogs on Spacehey a loooooong time ago but everyone is kinda inactive and i dont use it that much. i wanna make this long ok let me be, i was sick did i say that
The internet is massive, instant and as i say this i also wanted to make a note of i wanna make more friends online lol iiii i hate twitter or any other social media, i only truly use spacehey and neocities and my instagram is just a personal account so idk.
note here from me of the future me of the past; guess who got 100/100 in the exams wohoo!! anyway im just going home from a test and my head hurts then i went to the supermarket to buy cookies and bread with my mom:)

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